THE CRUXSHADOWS - CASSANDRA
Watching backwards as life like pictures
Stinging thoughts, born with phantoms
We danced above a world forgotten
Moments cherished...even now
A train-wrecked heart loves fairy tales
Singing from a gaping wound
However time has left unsettled
My memories play out of tune
You can't unmake a cold mistake
You can't undo the hearts you break
You can't erase the poet's fate
Not even if you try
And she had Audry Hepburn's smile
With deeper sadder eyes
The only thing she said
No one hears Cassandra cry
Because the earth is standing still
And the truth becomes a lie
A choice profound is bittersweet
No one hears Cassandra cry
A heartfelt sorrow I believe
Offered this for passion's crime
A crippled satellite trapped in orbit
My memories play out of time
You can't unmake a cold mistake
You can't undo the hearts you break
You can't erase the poet's fate
Not even if you ry...
The listless price of my descension
Where emptiness has pulled me down
Cascading from my divagation
Below the frozen winter skies
Pythonic sadness unreleased
As serpents rigid in cold
Waiting for the warmth of Sunday
Before the cruelty of growing old
Are you listening?
Are you listening?
Are you listening now?
Like Orpheus with hope intangled
Your path was mapped about your feet
Leading backwards into forgiveness
Or forward to a foold retreat
Još jedan bend koji rado slušam... 
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DIARY OF DREAMS
Pišem novi post tek toliko da se javim....
Nema ništa novo od zadnjega puta kada sam pisala post... Nemam ideje ni inspiracije... Donijela sam par sitnih odluka (ne bih sada htjela o njima)...
U zadnje vrijeme sve više slušam Sisters Of Mercy i Diary Of Dreams, iako ne znam zašto. Jedan sam dan pustila jednu pjesmu od Diary Of Dreamsa, i od tada ih svaki dan po par sati slušam... Pa evo riječi pjesme Cold Deceit:
Diary Of Dreams - Cold Deceit
Crucified in my mortal chamber
Begging eyes deceive my strength
Stumbling feet into horizons
Tear - stained cheeks taint my soul
In cold deceit
In captive secrecy still waiting
For the truth that I can't find
A stranger's words in cryptic silence
My paradise in cold deceit
While my sympathy is dying
I loose belief of who I am
Victims fatefully united
Imploring now in seclusion
Have you seen through my disguise ?
In cold deceit
Have you felt my shattered eyes ?
In cold deceit
Pjevač grupe...
Još jednom...
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NO TIME TO CRY...
Da... Kako naslov kaže... Iako se ja toga u zadnje vrijeme ne držim. Puno sam prošloga tjedna plakala 
. Zbog jedne svađe. I onda još škola. Katastrofa do katastrofe. Ali, samnom u razred ide jedna super cura koja mi uvijek pomogne kada mi je najteže. Ona me razumije, i tješi me kada mi je teško. I zahvaljujući njoj, opet sam sretna sa osobom koju volim najviše na svijetu...
Samo zbog nje mogu normalno pretrpit još jedan dan u školi. I ona mi uvijek u lice kaže sve što o meni misli i što je kod mene ljuti. To cijenim, i koliko se ja god na to uvrijedila znam da ima pravo... Hvala joj...
Druga stvar: škola... Dobro je počela (nisam dobila još nijednu jedinicu), i nadam se da neću, jer sam dovoljno unakazila ocjene u prvom polugodištu... 
I kako moj najdraži pisac Lovecraft kaže:
"THAT IS NOT DEAD WHICH CAN ETERNAL LIE,
AND WITH STRANGE AEONS EVEN DEATH MAY DIE."
U hrvatskom prijevodu:
"NIJE MRTVO ONO ŠTO VJEČITOG JE SNA,
A U ČUDNIM EONIMA I SMRT UMRIJETI ZNA."
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FIRST AND LAST AND ALWAYS...
Nema ništa novo... Zapravo uskoro će biti sve po starom: opet ću ići u veliku, glupu ustanovu koju zovu škola... Sa glupim ljudima i još glupljim nastavnicima (koji nas, kao, pokušavaju nešto naučiti, ali ne ide). Ima sreće da nisu svi u mom razredu maloumni i debili
Da, da, ima i dobrih ljudi koji me razumiju...
Uskoro ću opet letit sa sata sa svojim brbljavim frendom (koji je usput, ovo polugodište pao fiziku)...
Stara prijeti sa učenjem... Kaže novi režim... Pa daj, nisam ti ja u Holokaustu! Al nema veze, i to će proći...
Evo vam riječi jedne pjesme koja nosi naziv mog današnjeg naslova:
Sisters Of Mercy - First and Last and Always
See a body and a dream of the dead days
A following lost and blind
Living far from here
Tomorrow is hard to find
And it seems like twenty five years of
Promises and give me more
Scenes of a hand-me-down in
Dresses heard before
First and last and always: Til the end of time
First and last and always: Mine
Maybe it's not so easy
Maybe it's a way to long
Say, say you'll be by me
When the evidence comes along
First and last and always: My calling, my time
First and last and always: Mine
My calling
My time
See a place and a dream of the dead days
A following lost and blind
Cross my heart with silver
Here's the key behind
Seems like twenty five years of
Ever after ever more more more
Seems I wore this face for you
Far too long before
First and last and always: Til the end of time
First and last and always: Mine
First and last and always: My calling, my time
First and last and always: Mine
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CHARLOTTE SOMETIMES
all the faces
all the voices blur
change to one face
change to one voice
prepare yourself for bed
the light seems bright
and glares on white walls
all the sounds of
charlotte sometimes
into the night with
charlotte sometimes
night after night she lay alone in bed
her eyes so open to the dark
the streets all looked so strange
they seemed so far away
but charlotte did not cry
the people seemed so close
playing expressionless games
the people seemed
so close
so many
other names...
sometimes i'm dreaming
where all the other people dance
sometimes i'm dreaming
charlotte sometimes
sometimes i'm dreaming
expressionless the trance
sometimes i'm dreaming
so many different names
sometimes i'm dreaming
the sounds all stay the same
sometimes i'm dreaming
she hopes to open shadowed eyes
on a different world
come to me
scared princess
charlotte sometimes
on that bleak track
(see the sun is gone again)
the tears were pouring down her face
she was crying and crying for a girl
who died so many years before...
sometimes i dream
where all the other people dance
sometimes i dream
charlotte sometimes
sometimes i dream
the sounds all stay the same
sometimes i'm dreaming
there are so many different names
sometimes i dream
sometimes i dream...
charlotte sometimes crying for herself
charlotte sometimes dreams a wall around herself
but it's always with love
with so much love it looks like
everything else
of charlotte sometimes
so far away
glass sealed and pretty
charlotte sometimes
...Završna riječ... Pjesma me totalno opsjela, slušam je po cijeli dan, ne znam zašto, svaka čast grupi...
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NOVI POST...
Dosadno mi je. Sjedim u sobi i gledam kroz prozor. Nebo je tmurno, kao da će padati kiša. Da bar! Ali nisam ja takve sreće... U mojem životu postoje samo dva sretna trenutka, ali neću o njima... Oni koji me poznaju možda i znaju o kakvim je trenutcima riječ...
Iako se sada osjećam da me ništa ne može razveseliti, ali doslovno. Osjećam da nikome više neću moći pružiti dovoljno poštovanja, pažnje. Kao da sam prazna. Iako sada proklinjem tu prazninu, nekada bih je voljela zauvijek imati. Prigovarali su kada se nisam smijala ("Šta je s tobom?!"), a kada se smijem, opet samnom nešto nije u redu. Ne znam šta svi hoće od mene.
I još jedna stvar: ljubav. Jedina stvar za koju smatram vrijednom u životu.
Imam ljubav jednoga dečka. I neopisivo ga volim. Do nikoga mi nije stalo kao do njega... Ni jednu sekundu provedenu sa njim nikada ne bih promjenila...
Volim ga...
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MRŽNJA, BIJES I TUGA...
Vrijeme je da napišem novi post...
Pa evo: Jučer sam razmišljala. Dugo. Pokušavala sam shvatiti neke stvari. Ali nije mi išlo. Bila sam tužna... Zapravo, malo je reći da sam bila tužna. Jednostavno ne shvaćam zašto si ljudi međusobno rade sranja, i grade sreću na tuđoj nesreći. Iako ja osobno mislim da takva osoba ne može biti sretna. Ali takvih je osoba puno. Kao da svi nose maske, i onda ih nakon određenoga vremena skinu i pokažu svoje pravo lice. Pokažu tko su zapravo... Ljudi koji se poigravaju tuđim osjećajima, a najžalosnije je to što sam takvim ljudima vjerovala. Većina me iznevjerila. Postoji malo ljudi kojima vjerujem, jer sam se sada u ljude razočarala...
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